I never thought much about the healthcare system growing up. When I got hurt, my dad would tell me “to walk it off.” I didn’t wear a helmet when riding a motorcycle out in the canyon or riding a bicycle. That’s just how things were back in the 1970s and early 80s. And that lack of foresight still exists today whenever some new technology is invented, like the invention of the internet or a hyperbaric oxygen chamber, or a new lifestyle experiment is started. When something is new to humanity, people don’t always know what to make of it at first; there is not yet a social category that it fits into. It’s not until enough people get seriously hurt that society wakes up, attaches emotions to the new phenomenon (good or bad), categorizes it, and sometimes demands change.

I do remember watching Emergency! 51, as I called it, is about two paramedics rescuing people involved in accidents. Everyone involved, from the fire department to the healthcare workers in the hospital, were well-trained and somewhat serious professionals. I have always admired people we can count on to deliver excellence in our time of need!

I remember one episode where the main characters of the series, the two paramedics, one afternoon rescued a man who drove his car over a steep embankment. After the paramedics hoisted the man back to the road above, the man blurted out some silly remark, revealing he was a drunk jelly belly wino with nothing better to do. The paramedics laughed it off as funny. Typically the chronically drunk are social by nature and don’t know what to do with themselves when they’re alone. They lack curiosity about the world around them. These types tend to tug at women’s heartstrings. Society's social acceptance of drunk drivers in America is long gone, thanks largely to Mothers Against Drunk Driving (MADD).

Some health hazards, like alcohol, are obvious and can be avoided. However, in life there are hidden hazards. They come in microscopic, macroscopic, and even spiritual kinds, and today's US healthcare system, as good as it is, can sometimes provide backward treatment advice, advice that is decades behind current knowledge, or no advice at all. It’s no secret the healthcare system is still plagued with a limited materialistic worldview and is slow to accept holistic ideas and the power of the mind!

My Observation of the US healthcare system.

I am no healthcare expert. Do your own research before base jumping off this essay.

Heart Palpitations: Take heart palpitations, for example. I had them for 20 years and then cured myself in 2017 after doing research, including reading How to Stop or Prevent Heart Palpitations by Nick Walsh, and making some dietary changes. Twenty years of suffering and many frightening episodes earlier, a doctor told me there is nothing we can do. He said lots of people get them, including him; don’t worry about it.

Gum Disease: A dentist will prescribe a dental cleaning every 6 months or even every few weeks if you're up for it! In addition, brushing, flossing, and using a water pick. What the dentist won’t tell you is to start taking vitamin D3 (6000 to 10000 IU) and chew gum with xylitol in it after each meal. By the way, for D3 to work, it needs the support of loads of vitamin C, as well as magnesium glycinate and trace minerals like zinc and copper with healthy fats for absorption (see Dr. Berg chiropractor and nutrition expert). In addition, eat a whole foods diet and reduce sugar and carbohydrates. Plus, keep two or three toothbrushes, one for each meal, and let each one dry for 24 hours before reuse to kill off bacteria. Visit Dr. Ellie Phillips's YouTube channel for more.

Hypoglycemia: A doctor diagnosed me with hypoglycemia (low blood sugar levels caused by work exhaustion) and suggested I eat many small meals throughout the day, when in fact the patient should reduce sugar and carbohydrates and store their food energy in healthy fats like avocado, nuts, and fatty fish, and try intermittent fasting just to prove they don’t need a lot of food, just the right foods. I cured myself of low blood sugar about 10 years ago.

Acid Reflux: Two of my uncles died of complications of acid reflux. My dad had acid reflux and thought he would only live five more years. That was fifteen years ago. The doctor said he must take medication to reduce acid. Medication causes new health problems and doesn’t address the root cause. My research said acid reflux is caused by too low stomach acid, possibly from eating sugary breads, preventing the stomach valve sensor from receiving the high enough acidity value to cause the valve to close all the way; see Dr. Berg. Solution: Eat a whole foods diet, be smart about sugar/carbs, don’t deviate too far from what our ancestors ate before the man-made foods of the 20th century, and add sauerkraut to your evening meal. Plus, keep almonds or almond milk handy to neutralize acid when sleeping on your right side. Sauerkraut is a discovery I made by accident. It seems to help me; is it just my imagination? Maybe it will help you too.

High Cholesterol: My neighbor was prescribed statins by her doctor to control her cholesterol. In many cases this is really an insulin resistance and inflammation issue. Switch to a whole foods diet, and eat cooked collard greens to clean up cholesterol. To avoid inflammation caused by glycation (burnt meat), cook your meat in a pot of water like a stew. Add a small daily dose of 72% dark chocolate to reduce heart attack risk, plus reduce sugar and carbohydrates to reduce inflammation. Consider intermittent fasting.

Note: If you’re like me and don’t want to give up your Wahoo’s fish tacos or whatever, email food companies and ask if they can switch out ultra-processed seed oils for cooking with avocado oil or something healthier. I am still waiting to hear back from Wahoo’s.

Skin sore Just over 20 years ago, I visited a doctor because of a sore on my back that wouldn’t heal. The doctor prescribed an ointment. I used the ointment for a whole year, but the sore persisted. I decided to throw the ointment away, and instead, each night as I was falling asleep, I visualized my sore being healed. By the end of the month (four weeks later), my sore flaked off a scab and vanished, never to return. Score one self-hypnosis!

See a pattern here? The current healthcare system does not cater to those of us who want to find the root cause, a cure or a natural remedy or therapy. But there is a kind of unofficial healthcare system taking place in social media by self-curing patients and gurus telling their stories and sharing their expertise!

Somebody knows something. Look no further than YouTube for alternative or additional resources to the healthcare system. We should empower these self-experimenters to contribute their ideas to enhance the healthcare system. Take Vox Sua Non, for example. He suffered as a voice hearer for 20 years. From what he learned from reading Think and Grow Rich and studying manifestation, he used self-hypnosis to cure himself; he’s been voice-free for 7 years now. Not an easy accomplishment! Visit Bryan Johnson and see him taking sizable risks in an attempt to reverse age every part of his body using precision science and developing practical solutions for the rest of us. What a test pilot!!!

Osteoporosis: macroscopic, preventable, and reversible. Bone loss can sneak up on people. Get a DEXA scan before it gets you! A patient gets a DEXA scan to measure bone density, and it’s determined the patient’s hip and lower back bones are porous and likely to fracture. The doctor will prescribe a medication like Fosamax or Prolia that’s supposed to increase bone density over a period of a few years. The doctor might even discourage exercise out of fear of injury.

My research tells me these drugs increase bone density; however, it's cheap bone that may look good on a DEXA scan but actually makes the bones more brittle, and the drug can even eat away the jawbone over time. In addition, after a few years the drugs may have harmful effects on the immune system, some of which is located inside the bone marrow; see Dr. Doug. Medications might be ok for an elderly person who is in their final years of life, but for able-bodied people, a better plan is strength training exercises, sleep, nutrition, supplements, and buying a stand-up adjustable desk. People do reverse their osteoporosis this way, and the proof is in the follow-up visit for another DEXA scan. Yes, osteoporosis is reversible, even in extreme cases—like the story I heard about on the Dr. Doug YouTube channel regarding a man who had bones so porous, his rib cage didn’t show up in the x-ray. It was like he had no ribs. If you know someone who needs help with osteoporosis, resistance training, and balance exercises, I recommend the book Osteoporosis Reversal Secrets by Igor Klibanov, and check out his YouTube channel. If you can learn not to fall in the first place, the problem is half solved. Also, just remember, Brian Johnson says we get a new skeleton every 10 years!

Business before science. My experience with the health care system taught me in most cases doctors are useful because they have technology like scans and blood work. Diagnosing the root cause and finding or devising a cure is my job! That’s because doctors are limited by a business-first healthcare system. The US is a capitalist country prioritizing profit and freedom, not scientific thinking and the improvement of humankind. Therefore, there is a narrow focus only on solutions that can fit practically into a profitable product or service, like medication and surgery.

Lastly, I am going to discuss what I think is the greatest disservice of the US healthcare system to its patients and solve this problem with what I think might be a cure and quite possibly the beginnings of a healthcare revolution.

Voice Hearing, Hallucinations, and Schizophrenia
I read a story about a woman who spent the night with some friends and acquaintances at a mountain camp. In the middle of the night she awoke in severe emotional distress. She said she was sexually assaulted by someone in her group. They discovered that a ghost was violating her, and no one else had touched her. It turns out that a few years earlier, she had been raped, and now that past trauma was reemerging as an uncontrolled hallucination of a ghost whom she felt was violating her. She had to be medicated because the ghost would not stay away. A few years later she said the experience was very traumatic, but she never thought her personality would change as a result. Did her emotions create a ghost, or did the ghost already exist and was drawn to her emotions?

The incubus and succubus phenomenon is similar but has a different origin. It’s an underreported and understudied sexual assault on the vulnerable. The root cause of the attack is an individual's unfulfilled sexual needs that over time can potentially manifest a harmful ghost that can wreak havoc on the individual's body and brain, plus cause spiritual turmoil. It can increase a victim's sexual function to record-breaking levels and cannot be turned off. Interestingly, it occurs more often to women than men; women are visited by the incubus. However, there exist internet groups of men naively and foolishly volunteering to summon the succubus. There are other young adults in social media looking for help, but only religious leaders have written books on this topic. Are you not curious why this phenomenon has been around for millennia and yet I could find no science books? How does this phenomenon affect a victim's epigenetics, i.e., possible grandchildren? Does the human reproductive system, including pleasure, act as a battery, a divine communication device, and an ID? Do we have a spirit, is it powered by nuclear energy and does it relate at all to the emotional frequency of a sexual experience? How is this experience different than a near-death experience? How are we to accept a near-death experience as being more legit than hallucinations, like voices and ghosts? Are all hallucinations more or less equal in their potential, or could the incubus/succubus be a kind of Ark of the Covenant?

Note: later in this essay I will explain why certain words are italicized.

I am reminded of a sci-fi movie about a tiny village next to a lake on another planet. No one in the village had any idea there was a sizable futuristic spaceship sitting at the bottom of the lake, not far down. It was visitors from outer space that informed the villagers of this profound discovery just a stone's throw away. Had just one of these old-fashioned villagers possessed the curiosity and courage to row a boat to the center of the lake, put on some goggles, stick his head in the water, and see what's down there, all of their lives would have been better off.

The moral of this story is that funding science that explores places no one is looking may yield the most profound and life-changing discoveries, resulting in the creation of zero-to-one technologies that countries with no creative freedom can only copy. I claim profound discoveries are just a stone’s throw away, discoveries that may help humans realize their potential far exceeds any AI (artificial intelligence), if only the curious dare to explore the unexplored.

Uncontrolled hallucinations are a mysterious phenomenon that’s been around for millennia. In over 70% of cases, chronic hallucinations like voice hearing are caused by overwhelming life events that add up to trauma. The trauma leaves a kind of imprint or stain in the subconscious mind, just like the plate or film of an astronomer's telescope is kept open for extended periods of time to collect enough light to see a distant object. The trauma can originate from abusive parents, child abandonment, loss of a loved one, desperate circumstances, love starvation, rape, or the battlefields of war. Soldiers that have post-traumatic stress disorder sometimes also hear voices. Just experiencing a very unpleasant life caused by income inequality year after year, decade after decade, with no hope can make an individual feel like they’re merely existing in a never-ending episode of the Twilight Zone. People with little objective thinking ability or life experience are particularly vulnerable to this mysterious phenomenon of invisible entities taking over their minds and dictating their decisions. In other words, you have a fighting chance if you happen to think like the professor on Gilligan’s Island. Uncontrolled hallucinations can be eerie, spooky, and maddening! Are they just thought forms expressing emotion, or do some also have a spiritual link and agenda all their own? No one knows for sure.

In many cases the cause can be boiled down to two harmful acts: an individual has been subjugated by way of gaslighting and has been isolated. Being unable to create boundaries to protect oneself, for example, because if there is no affordable housing, victims can find themselves trapped living with their abuser.

Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation where one person causes another to question their reality, perceptions, or memories, often leading to confusion and a loss of self-esteem. Gaslighting is a form of lying! Gaslighting is practiced by individuals such as narcissists—I have personal experience with dysfunctional people. Gaslighting is also practiced by whole social groups, like religious conservatism and social liberalism, for their own personal gain at the expense of others.

Examples:
1. A parent manipulating a son or daughter to believe he/she is defective because they’re an introvert.
2. Your hard work really doesn’t count; you’re being told you did nothing at all!
3. A rape survivor being told her rape was her fault... she brought this upon herself.
4. The social lie that there are plenty of fish in the sea; you just need to develop confidence! This is referring to romantic partners, for which the options are dismal at best; a lot of people take what they can get and just wear a fake happy face, and those with the lowest standards (deficiencies of the mind) cope the best. If you’re like I am and refuse to accept the average mentality that it’s ok to use non-stick pans and ingest forever chemicals, then you might also demand more than what the mate market currently offers.
5. Russian propaganda: Ukraine started the war! And hundreds of other examples throughout Russian propaganda history.
6. President Trump telling Californians, There is no drought!

Isolation:
1. A gay person living in Salt Lake City (Mormon capital) is isolated compared to living in West Hollywood, Palm Springs, Laguna Beach, or San Francisco.
2. A person, due to income inequality, is forced to live amongst immigrants of a different culture and language resulting in isolation.
3. A man is isolated because there are no legitimate available women.
4. An individual truth seeker living in a world that’s willfully ignorant.
5. A person who lives with their parents—Dad has dementia and Mom has brain fog—is isolated.
6. A person who cannot participate in the mate market due to looks or health deficiencies is isolated.
7. Extroverts dominate the population and customize the rules, thereby isolating introverts. For example, open-concept housing, the way schools teach, the way leaders are elected, and the job interview process.
8. The concept of Jesus being a Jew living in that time and place—he may have been isolated.

Dominance, Mate Selection, and Territory: Evolution's engine that drives behavior in all humans and other animals. See Basic Instincts: Objective and Subjective

Gaslighting makes a person feel small, which compromises the fulfillment of the [dominance] instinctual need. Gaslighting can also derail an individual's life plans, preventing the individual from fulfilling their [mate selection] and [territorial] needs. Isolation falls within the social [territorial] category, but isolation can also make it very difficult to fulfill all three basic instincts.

Nowhere to turn. Unfortunately, people suffering from hallucinations from any or all of the five senses or schizophrenia have nowhere to turn for real solutions. By the way, schizophrenia makes up a small percentage of people who experience hallucinations like auditory, visual, physical sensations, out-of-body experiences, and nightmares. Schizophrenia is characterized by disorganized thinking and false beliefs. There are lots of people with disorganized thinking and false beliefs that are not labeled schizophrenic because they happen not to hallucinate. Just visit any voting booth on election day or any church.

Note: People with beliefs used in this context are intellectually rigid and cannot change their minds when they’re wrong. Whereas knowledge is updatable as new discoveries are made, allowing objective people to stay intellectually flexible like a rubber band. See Principles: Objective and Subjective

A psychologist is likely to refer a hallucinating patient to a psychiatrist. Upon visiting the psychiatrist, the patient mentions he thinks he was visited by a ghost; almost without hesitation, the psychiatrist, without knowing anything else about this patient, will begin putting together a medication plan. The typical psychiatrist who has been given the authoritarian power to lock someone into a lunatic asylum believes those who hallucinate or are diagnosed with schizophrenia have a chemical imbalance and an incurable disease. This is false! From my studies, the chemical imbalance idea is nothing more than an idea not supported by any evidence. It’s an idea that stuck because it sounds cool and gave more authoritarian power to psychiatrists, plus it fit well with the social sentiment of the 1980s. It’s also not true that hallucinating and schizophrenia are incurable; even some very bad cases have recovered fully with the right help and social support. In addition, I learned people in third-world countries who don’t have access to medication recover faster than people in modern countries who do have accessibility.

The medication will only mask the symptoms for some patients, not provide a cure. The side effects of the medications are devastating and may be downplayed or not discussed much. There are too many side effects for me to go over in an essay; I will just say some of the side effects are swollen nasal passages, bloodshot eyes, high blood sugar, weight gain, sexual dysfunction, a reduction in brain size, and a reduced life span, sometimes as much as 10 to 20 years. I am no expert, but this sounds like a no-brainer to me—no one should be taking antipsychotics for a lengthy time.

The buildup of potential. Like a police investigation, what I’m about to discuss next should outrage us all! In 1965, curious researchers conducted an experiment feeding a low-carb, high-fat diet (ketogenic diet) to a sizable group of schizophrenic patients and discovered symptoms in most of the patients disappeared. That’s right, a relatively safe alternative to medication has been around for 60 years! If you ask any psychiatrist, it’s likely they’ve never heard of the ketogenic diet and might even belittle it as a viable treatment. You can find out more about the ketogenic diet for mental illness at Lauren Kennedy West and the Metabolic Mind YouTube channels. The ketogenic diet essentially alters how the brain metabolizes energy by providing ketones from fat instead of sugar from carbohydrates. It will not be workable for people who are slender, as it will promote weight loss. See Dr. Berg and his many ketogenic recipes.

Why should medication be plan A before trying a whole foods diet including coconut oil with MCT and code liver oil to increase fat in the brain, saffron to reduce brain inflammation, GABA to reduce feelings of anxiety, walnuts, fatty fish, a little magnesium l-threonate, chamomile tea for sleep, melatonin for those difficult nights, and learning to do self-hypnosis in a specific way that can quiet the voices? I will talk more about this self-hypnosis technique later.

Maybe a patient's gut microbiome should be examined first. Perhaps a leaky gut might be introducing toxins into the bloodstream that pass through the blood-brain barrier, agitating some neurons, thus causing hallucinations. Could consuming the probiotic L. reuteri have some effect on hallucinations? What about colostrum or some other nutrient? See Dr. Berg; his knowledge of nutrition is immense!

Another option few people know about is the Hearing Voices movement and Hearing Voices Network. The network is run by the voice hearers themselves and was started by Dutch psychiatrist Marius Romme, science journalist Sandra Escher, and voice hearer Patsy Hagein in Holland in 1987. See hearing-voices.org and, in the US, hearingvoicesusa.org.

This group has had it with the unchecked authoritarian power of psychiatrists and mostly prefers not to use medication, instead believing engagement with the voices (talking to them) in a respectful manner can change the power dynamic between the mysterious good voices and bad voices, making the experience more tolerable for the hearer. That’s right, there can be both helpful voices and nasty voices with the power to charm or allure you to follow their commands; it’s both frightening and fascinating! Some voice hearers might consider their voice a gift. One man claims his voice helps him play poker!

TED | The voices in my head | Eleanor Longden

One thing leads to another! Whereas the 20th century saw tremendous progress being made with the tangible world we can see with our eyes and manipulate with our fingers, which led to the development of macroscopic technologies (the automobile, airplane, and modern appliances), the 21st century seems to be on the verge of incredible discoveries in brain science, new ways to understand the unknown, and manipulating the intangible. Scientists are now saying we hallucinate reality. Moving forward, if US leaders want to lead the world with new discoveries, they’d better pay attention!

I claim when it comes to hallucinations and schizophrenia, much of medical science is studying the wrong level of reality. I think many cases of this phenomenon are more closely related to a near-death experience than chemical neurocircuitry. We seem to be living in a holographic universe that we hallucinate into 3D existence, and some of the hallucinators are touching the membrane that divides our conscious experience from the unconscious. This membrane seems to abide by rules of information transfer from one side to another. If an individual can achieve harmony with the other side, bidirectional communication may be established. This may require the assistance of experts from a variety of fields of study to understand, including nuclear and quantum physics. Is string theory related to hallucinations?

Returning to the mental health of hallucinations, there are other potential solutions science may need funding to explore, like Avatar Therapy, MDMA-Assisted Therapy for Healing Trauma, somatic tracking and breathing exercises, plus binaural beats. I read an avatar therapy story about a voice hearer whose voice just vanished when his psychologist pretended to be his voice. If we just knew a little more about the subconscious mind, might we discover an incredibly simple cure?

I have a few more suggestions I would like to see science do studies on:

1. Memory reprocessing therapy has been used effectively to rid the body of pain that the brain falsely thinks is supposed to exist. Maybe it can be effective against tactile sensations and visual and auditory hallucinations. See also Pain Reprocessing Therapy (PRT) by Alan Gordon.

2. Shaman drum beats and assisted self-hypnosis. Back around, I think, 2008, I watched a documentary about a woman living with her family on a farm in the highlands of Scotland. One night she had a dream, and in her dream her pony said goodbye to her. The next morning she went out to see her pony only to find him lying on his side; he had died. Not long after that, the woman came down with a mystery illness that showed up on x-rays. I think it was near her chest. The illness got more serious, and the doctors were at a loss to explain it. The woman and her husband became so desperate with Western medicine unable to help, they contacted a shaman in South America and flew him to Scotland. One evening while the woman was lying down in a meditative state, the shaman performed these consistent short bursts of drumbeats. Not long after, the illness went away, and new X-rays showed all clear. The doctors were baffled!

There seems to be a window when the subconscious is open to input that occurs the moment a person awakes or is in a self-hypnosis state. Could someone please invent a device that can detect the instant a patient wakes up from sleep, causing a switch to turn on auditory drumbeats or short bursts with impactful verbal statements the patient records with his own voice that can program the patient's subconscious mind in a way that counters the hallucinations? This device could probably work in conjunction with our smartphone. I call it telephone antibodies because it broadcasts antibodies to our wounded subconscious. As an additional experiment, try communicating the message in Morse code and see how the subconscious reacts! Maybe this could be an effective treatment that reduces recovery time from 5 to 10 years of trial-and-error self-hypnosis experiments down to 5 to 10 days or weeks.

3. Could a temporary, medically induced coma reboot the brain back to original settings or perhaps wipe clear any memories that are causing the brain to stick like glue in hallucination mode? In other words, is there a way to flash the memory?

4. Science and voice hearers should form a think tank to explore and document what the voices are saying with the goal of developing a communication language model (dictionary) that can effectively communicate with the subconscious mind in an attempt to survey it like astronomers map outer space. Where is the subconscious mind, and how exactly does it function? Is it located in the brain? Could it be located outside the observable universe? Maybe we should call it a universal mind! Much of what voices say are metaphors that must be defined, as well as words that happen to be close approximations to what the voices seem to be trying to get a voice hearer to think about. Like hints, but why? Is there a rule? For example, a voice might say the word "sundial," which is a metaphor for timing. This word seems to act as a reminder to keep moving when the voice hearer has a number of things to accomplish in his busy day. Or the subconscious might flash a visual hallucination—a silhouette of a duck—to make you think of your dad, because you know he likes ducks. Or the voice might say the word "suicide," which sometimes just means you have changed your mind and have altered course (the old you has died and a new you is born). Or could there be a spiritual meaning?

Furthermore, take inventory of how many voices a person has. Do voices communicate with each other in a secret language or coded words to prevent the voice hearer from becoming aware of the voices' goals? Could unawareness sometimes be in the voice hearers' own best interest? Could awareness cause some voices to vanish? Is there a voices economy? Is there mob rule? Are some voices paralyzed and need our help to empower them to help us? Do voices operate similarly to a fungus? I think fungi trade resources and have an economy. Is every part of our body and brain a potential voice? Is your past self as a child a voice you can communicate with? Can a voice be trained, like an AI (artificial intelligence), to provide the voice hearer a gift?

5. Offer a non-taxable bounty to any person or group in the world who can provide a breakthrough understanding or make this invisible phenomenon tangible. Could Himalayan monks (meditation super gurus) provide some insight? Has anyone even asked them?

6. Crowd Source Hypnosis: I watched Penn & Teller perform a magical act that involved the audience focusing their mental intention onto a blindfolded woman on the stage to influence her decision. Maybe experimenting with action-at-a-distance real magic could help a patient recover faster. Scientists, where are you?!

7. The concepts learned from V.S. Ramachandran's mirror box experiment to correct the behavior of phantom limb paralysis might be applied in some way to hallucinations.

8. What if a patient’s entire body, including the head, was submerged in a tub of water, and the water vibrated, trying different frequencies to see if there is a frequency that affects hallucinations? Could it repel voices? What about sonar?

9. Could lucid dreaming effectively communicate with the subconscious to resolve the issue? You might think lucid dreaming is too difficult, but your subconscious might make it happen if it needs your help and you ask.

10. Create a technology that can read a person's thoughts and listen in to a hearer's voices. Then use harmonic sound waves or vibrations that can noninvasively focus to a pinpoint without touching the skull or surrounding tissue to unlink (cut) the intrusive voices' neuropathways.

Who knows, all of these experimental efforts might do more than alleviate sticky memories; maybe they lead to a treatment or cure for something completely unintended, like addiction! Or maybe it will help rehabilitate volunteer inmates.

Like a bat out of hell
By now you might be wondering why I’ve studied this subject so much. It’s because just over four years ago the voices began calling my name, literally each morning as I awoke. For a long time I just thought I was dreaming. One morning I decided to answer the voices, saying, "I can hear you. What is it that you want?" Actually, that’s not true; I don’t remember the exact words I used. I think I told the voices I was a little unimpressed with them because they sounded like regular people instead of something more intellectually advanced. That’s when my life began to unravel. Not long after that I was sitting down to eat dinner, and I heard a voice say, “I love you.” It was shocking. My first thought was this is an angel telling me I was dying. I don’t know what “I love you” is supposed to mean. Is this my subconscious, inner child, my shadow, whatever that is, or a message from the afterlife if there is one? At night my body started to be physically assaulted and taken control of by what seemed to be spiritual entities. I was being bodyjacked! (Like being carjacked). Will the FBI take on a case like mine? What do I do? Like a bat out of hell, I want out of here!

Note: Just now as I was writing the paragraph above, the voice I hear suggested I use the word "unravel" instead of the word "change" that I had written. Also, in a previous paragraph above, I used the word "membrane." The voice I hear seems to suggest there is a membrane that allows some information to come to me from the unconscious or subconscious or whatever and simultaneously blocks information under certain circumstances. The voice also suggested communicating in "Morse code." My guess is that if you think Morse code might be effective or you’re just unsure but a little optimistic, then that emotion of optimistic uncertainty could make an expectation that your effort might indeed be effective; thus, like a self-fulfilling prophecy, the subconscious ends up being successfully programmed.

What’s it like being possessed? It’s like being assimilated by the Borg and losing your freedom to think freely. You think losing your right to free speech is bad; you have no idea! How do you plan an escape when your captors can hear your thoughts? It’s been an otherworldly experience that reminds me of many episodes of Star Trek! A frightening health scare I am still navigating without a map because there are very few published directions or procedures for making a full recovery from people who have come before me. In fact, I cannot find any regarding my exact symptoms. The hardest part about this is I cannot find anyone to help me navigate out of this mental quicksand! The certified health professionals, psychologists, psychiatrists (four psychiatrists), and a neurologist have no knowledge of how hallucinations work and how to treat them effectively and safely; they only know the word "medication." They sound like a broken record, just like my voices! I need healthcare professionals to stop talking and follow my directions. Don’t get me wrong, I am grateful to have doctors, but If I won the lottery, I would hire a team of scientists or just very motivated people to help me do research, conduct experiments, invent technology, and connect with all the talent on earth working on this problem. I could really use some help figuring out this invisible Rubik's Cube.

If these walls could talk. I was waiting in a room at a neurologist's office located in a high-rise building. I was standing looking outside the window, watching airplanes on final approach to land at a nearby airport. I happened to also see a monarch butterfly go by just above the treetops when my voice commented to me about the muffled conversation happening in the next room between the doctor and her patient. My voice was eavesdropping on a barely audible conversation while my focus was outside.

I hear internal voices that aren't mine (being more thought-like), not auditory voices that some hear through ears. I have both helpful and distressing voices. The helpful voices have knowledge of things I do not and give me advice. For example, when I wondered about the root cause of my dry eyes, the doctor said it’s blepharitis, but what’s causing that? I’ve reduced sugar, carbs, and processed foods! My voice commented, "Lipids, epigenetics, liver." I think these are clues that should not be ignored.

The voice can get it wrong too. I watched my dad go into the refrigerator to get something to drink. The voice stated juice. I knew he was getting almond milk. How do you explain this if the voice is a pure reflection of my emotions? It makes me wonder if the subconscious functions in part like a vacuum collecting everyone’s experiences and saving them to a digital ocean hard drive, or store of value, then drawing information from the averages and making a prediction of juice, whereas my dad happens to uniquely drink almond milk. Or could it be that my fear that the voices might not be self-produced but rather visitors from a spiritual realm causes them to act like they don’t fully understand me, thus feeding my fear with a self-fulfilling prophecy?

The voices also can speak nonsense and try to trick me. The distressing voices say things like “I’ll cut you!” or tell me, “You died in heaven.” For the longest time I didn’t know what this meant. Recently they make me think they will cut their “link” to me, leaving me to die here on earth and never go to heaven. Is this nonsense? It terrifies me! The messages I receive, which often arrive at 2 and 3am, are so distressing that I believe I have been drifting in and out of post-traumatic stress disorder for more than a year now. Am I the only one on Earth who has been told by God and Jesus that I died? I wish I had science to help me figure this out. My hopeful hunch is that all this is caused by fear. Even if I have no fear, the slightest uncertainty may have the potential to hallucinate a whole story.

I do not have schizophrenia, which is disorganized thinking and unusual beliefs. I do have visual hallucinations and physical sensations, some out-of-body-like experiences in the sense that I have heard a popping sound and a sudden decrease or increase in energy at night in bed, voices will try to put words in my mouth, plus plenty of nightmares. These nightmares are not ones I have ever experienced in my life. It’s very much as though the voices are agents of change forcing me to have dreams of their making, not mine. The bad dreams are about not being able to find my way out, being trapped, and feeling claustrophobic and separated.

As an example of one daytime visual hallucination: a few months ago I was getting my teeth cleaned, and while I lay there with my eyes shut, I could see faint details of specific locations of the inside of my mouth as though I were seeing through my dental hygienist's eyes. I could not have imagined such realistic details if I tried.

The physical sensations are the most distressing. I seem to have partial experiences of what someone else experienced, as though maybe everyone’s emotional experiences are recorded and can be shared. These hallucinations wake me up in the middle of the night. I am currently experimenting with a breathing technique to hopefully eliminate these symptoms. I learned about breathwork from Zen Echoes and Raelan Agle. Raelan’s knowledge of the nervous system may be a key to solving this problem; I consider problem solvers to be my heroes!

I would like to know what role, if any, the body's fascia plays in tactile hallucinations. Also, can a skin conductivity test be performed during hallucinations? My voice gave me that idea. I have no idea what a skin conductivity test is!

The Hallucinators Guide to Metaphors
Do you know what the word "boondoggle" means? What about "Juggernaut"? I don’t know what they mean; these are a couple of the many words and symbols communicated to me by what seems like more than one voice. I hear encouraging statements like "knock it out of the park" and threats like "I will bury you" and "funeral." I hear numbers like ratings or probabilities and colors like "lavender" and "orange." Gems like "emerald" and "diamond." I hear "thank you" a lot. I almost never know why I hear thank you. One day I asked my voice, and it said "insurance". The voices told me I should be a "statistician." At the time I wasn’t 100% sure what that was; it turns out, from what I read, to be an exact match for my Myers–Briggs personality type. The voices have been unsuccessful in pinning me down and forcing me to follow their agenda, referring to me as a "rubber band." Their main agenda for me is church, marriage, and baby. How am I going to pull that off? I’m not religious and would feel like an isolated imposter at a church, and women are not exactly a dime a dozen! Some of the data I hear listed below seems to be a metaphorical match for my thoughts, and some is a match for what the voice is thinking or feeling. I am not these voices; there are plenty of voice statements that I have not listed here that I cannot relate to.

Note: Every italic word in this entire essay is a word a voice said to me, with the exception of "italic."

1. Apple: The voice said "Apple" after I or it learned something.
2. River Rat: I think river refers to hallucinating, and I am a rat making too many waves.
3. Riverside: I have escaped for now my worst physical symptoms.
4. Petting Zoo: The voice referring to me being held captive by the voices.
5. Change your wardrobe, Bob Hope: I wondered how I can escape these voices and body sensations that seem to manipulate me from the spirit world. I felt honored, like Bob Hope was answering my question from the afterlife.
6. Cobwebs: My boss asked me to do something; a period of time has gone by, and I am starting to feel like maybe I should take care of that now.
7. Coke Classic: I wish I could reset my mind 30 years ago.
8. W: I found or am about to achieve something of value. (I think my voice is referring to the scene in the 1963 movie It’s a Mad, Mad, Mad, Mad World when we see the look on that man’s face as he discovers the big W hiding in plain sight and finds the treasure).
9. Subatomic Clock: I wish for me to be reset 35 years younger.
10. Free Refill: I took care of something personal on company time.
11. Pratt and Whitney: I am overperforming at work.
12. Dancing: The voice is happy about my decision.
13. FaceTime: The voice is upset with a decision I made and wants me to make time to speak with it.
14. Pit Maneuver: The voice is really upset with me and wants to speak.
15. Parade: I wonder if the subconscious or this angel-like voice will be upset at me for revealing everything I learned about them [the voices] thus far.
16. Rattlesnake, You: I suspect Chinese leaders are reading my essays. I wonder what they think of me?
17. Blue Diamond: I want to be able to do what I want to do, not work a job!
18. Dead Lift: While at work I sent an email cc'ing 12 people with a 14 MB attachment.
19. Pregnant: I have an idea.
20. Lawn chair: The voice telling me, “I will wait for you.”
21. Dreams, punk, fools glory, maiden voyage: I wonder if an AI can generate dreams to counter the hallucinations? Later the voice called this a gun.
22. Nuclear engineering: I wonder how to achieve immortality?
23. Drawbridge: I wish I had my own thought space the voices could not hear.
24. Pergola: I want all my symptoms to go away, but I want to remain fully functional.
25. Matchmaker: How does a hallucinated universe work?
26. Light house confirming early warning system: What are voices?
27. Tip of the iceberg: I bet the voices can be trained to be useful and intelligent instead of nonsensical.
28. [omitted]: I wish I had a cure for baldness. I omitted what the voice said because it was interesting, and if I can develop a cure for baldness, I can use the money to fund science and design projects.
29. Neil Diamond: I take a quick look into the bathroom mirror as I rush to get back to work.
30. Weather balloon: Everything will work out for me!
31. Marco Polo: How do voices work?
32. Scoliosis: Voice telling me to correct my posture at the dinner table. I didn’t know what scoliosis was.
33. Paul Newman: The medical professionals at Labcorp, where I was, could not read the doctor's writing or reach her by phone, so I had to scramble to the doctor's office to decipher the doctor's order and then hurry back to get my blood drawn. Just after I exit the freeway, I hear Paul Newman. Paul Newman is cool, but I have never seen one of his movies. Is the voice just trying to make me feel better, or can the real Paul Newman relate to my experience and is watching me from the afterlife?
34. Lucid dreaming and a [visual hallucination] of an upside-down pyramid: I want to know the way to cure subconscious wounds.
Note: A pyramid represents knowledge. I’m trying to build some of the foundation of the pyramid to hopefully inspire people more educated than me to build the rest of the pyramid of knowledge. The voice seems to be saying I will eventually find lucid dreaming at the top of the pyramid, so why not just start there?
35. Foot rub: I appreciate this voice providing these metaphors.

Lucid dreaming reminds me of when the voice said it can only see me as a silhouette. I happen to be in the bathroom at the time and don’t like voices in there with me. More recently the voice said it can get to know me better in my dreams; I now think our daily life experience is put together in advance based on our thoughts and wishes, and sleep, dreams, and the voices play some kind of part in this.

If you let fear cage you, it will. Maybe certain words may one day be interpreted as biomarkers. Many of the words I hear seem to reflect my fears. Even if I don’t have any fear, the voice will often comment or answer with the last thing I would want to hear or make a comment that is like the perfect comeback to something I said in my thoughts. It’s like a world-class advertising agency that is expertly selecting a word or statement that potentially can emotionally hook me or stick to my memory. Maybe this is a clue demonstrating hallucinations are a memory phenomenon that acts like an emulator with a matchmaking function that pulls together an experience like gravity, making it difficult to distance ourselves. The most difficult daily challenge is distracting myself to think of something else to prevent the hallucination symptoms.

For the last four years, I have been managing this condition with self-hypnosis, not medication. As I mentioned earlier, I would explain how to quiet the voices. The trick to quieting the voices is to whisper to them as softly as you can during self-hypnosis. You can say, for example, "I am safe" or “My symptoms have faded away” in a kind way. Do this three times per day. I strongly recommend contacting the Hearing Voices Network. See hearing-voices.org and, in the US, hearingvoicesusa.org. Looking back, I wish I had done that to change the balance of power between the helpful and threatening voices.

Much of what I experience is a reflection of my emotions, but it’s more complicated than that. It’s as if emotions have the power to grow a creature or entity in the subconscious realm that is not exactly a reflection of yourself. Or maybe the entity already exists and is drawn to me, like playing a game of Marco Polo in the swimming pool. The entity or agent will use language that I don’t use, words I don’t always understand, and try to impose its [the entity’s] goals or agenda on me. For example, it will flash me a visual hallucination of a middle finger gesture. This is not a gesture I have ever used. It’s as if the subconscious selects from a pool of communication elements and chooses something that will make an emotional impression. As I am writing this, I was wondering if me experiencing my dad’s “I don’t give a rip” attitude my whole life is the root cause of this middle finger. The voice just said, “Social media.” In other words, it’s not my dad; the subconscious is recording maybe everything I am experiencing and perhaps also picking up, like a magnet, information through psychic or subconscious channels I am unaware of.

It makes me wonder if God is a voice or agent that has been growing behind the consciousness membrane in the unconscious/subconscious realm for as long as people have been praying, created by man to address a human need and accessible by anyone who prays or believes. The voice just said, “We’re a tote bag for you?”

One pattern I notice over and over is the voice reflects what’s in the back of my mind. I fear a little what a potentially powerful spiritual entity or god might think about my comment, and just like clockwork, I will hear an original word, metaphor, or statement matching my emotion or fear—“We’re a tote bag for you?” I cannot rule out the possibility that some voices are messages I receive from the afterlife if there is one. I need science to help me.

I have been praying to God multiple times per day for the last few months. A whisper of a voice has been providing me assistance and encouragement, navigating me hopefully back to my original self again. Once I thought of a question, and before I could hear my thoughts ask the question, the answer popped into my mind from God or a voice that seemed like God. Spooky impressive!

My voices are quiet, and I don’t know how many voices I have, and I cannot always make out what they’re saying (was that "play" or "pray"?). Most of the time it seems like one barely detectable, incredibly witty voice, like a thought that is not mine, that pulls ideas and statements out of a digital ocean of original ideas. It also communicates to me through the television and music, making me misinterpret what I am hearing by replacing one TV word with another word that magically rhymes but has a different meaning, and it does this instantaneously as though time doesn’t exist or it was predestined. I also get a heads up of something I am going to experience in the future. It’s spooky, distressing, somewhat psychic in nature, and super fascinating! It reminds me of those people who had a head injury and ended up with an extraordinary gift. However, this is a gift I did not ask for and wish I could return. I just want to be normal again.

For the curious, check these out!
Living with Voices 50 Stories of Recovery by Marius Romme
Can’t You Hear Them? By Simon McCarthy-Jones

The Placebo is the Cure!
I predict profound discoveries will be made and wondrous new cures derived from what science learns about the subconscious mind, including quite possibly the creation of a new industry. The placebo industry may one day become an alternative to the pharmaceutical industry. The development of subconscious programming technologies and procedures may one day replace some medications and surgeries.

As of this writing, I am experimenting with listening to my recorded vocal voice in an attempt to program my subconscious to make my symptoms fade away. At first the voice entities protested with anger, saying I sounded too depressing, as if I were reading a funeral eulogy of the voices passing. One of my internal entity voices suggested certain metaphors and statements could alleviate my symptoms and lead to a cure. Sometime later the voice suggested I embed these statements into the song Faded by Alan Walker, the version sung by Tove Styrke. This is a song I listen to once in a while, so I used my smartphone to record my vocal voice saying, "Cup, my rheostat has been turned down, I have symptom relief, and I am bored with this," and using a simple video editing program, I embedded these statements in a way I could hear them with the music in the background.

I play this experiment a number of times throughout the day while I’m working, driving to the grocery store, and sometimes when I am bordering sleep. Everything was going smoothly for a couple of weeks when something strange started to happen. The voice entities started twisting the way I heard a few words of the music in an attempt to program me by making me mishear the music lyrics. The singer's lyric "Where are you now?" sounded to me to be, "We love you now!" And my voice recording—that played on top of the music—where I said, "I am safe!" I now heard my vocal voice recording say, "Your subconscious is in outer space!" I think my voice or subconscious was just answering a question I had wondered about the day before about where the subconscious is located. The entity’s message seemed to say the subconscious is located outside the physical brain, and if I heard correctly, the subconscious is in dark energy. Could the message I’m receiving help astronomers know where to point the telescope? Or is this just my intuition predicting a potentiality? Or are these simply ideas my subconscious knows would emotionally resonate with me? I cannot describe how eerie it is to hear my own recorded voice say back to me something I never said in my life!

I am having some success with the following:
1. Self-hypnosis: guided imagery and affirmation techniques like those that can be learned from the book The Science of Getting Rich and Neville Goddard. In first-person perspective mode I imagine a few months into the future I am visiting my doctor and feeling joy in telling him, “What a difference a year makes! My symptoms are gone!”

2. Pray: “God, I pray to you now. I am grateful for all the help you sent me that helped me to reverse this condition and return to my normal healthy self again. Thank you. In Jesus name, amen.” I am not religious, and I don’t know if God exists. The voices that I hear that say the names "God" and "Jesus" might be just concepts in the back of my mind because I was born in the US instead of being born in a non-Christian country like Japan or India. Could it be that when I pray I am growing the God voice and its power to help reprogram my subconscious mind? Or is it that I am tuning into and establishing a strong lifeline with an already existing God the more I pray? I don’t mean to belittle God here, but thinking is what I do! I would think a god would understand this.

3. Meditation technique with my eyes closed of thinking of nothing for a few minutes, including trying not to anticipate anything. Just focus mindlessly on the grey and black shapes of eyes-closed darkness two hours before bed. I try not to think or imagine as I approach bedtime. I just focus on what I see in the here and now. Some people would refer to this as grounding; I call it smear the mirror.

4. Repetitively listening to my voice recordings using my phone, as I discussed above. The voice says the word habit a lot. Repetition or habit may shape or program the subconscious for good or bad.

5. Breathing exercises: to reduce physical symptoms, I focus my mind on my breath. I do this as a self-hypnosis technique while sitting on the couch, in the shower before bed, or while in bed to stay in control of my mind.

6. Journaling: I take notes and look for patterns that might reveal how the voices work and determine if they are self-generated in some way or possibly a spiritual entity connected to me in a universal mind.

7. Walking has a rhythm. Rhythm might be one of the principles of how this phenomenon works. I discovered years ago that when someone is walking, they are more likely to know that I am thinking of or noticing them. It’s as if we become in sync. While walking I practice thinking affirmations to repetitively program my subconscious.

Maybe not all psychiatrists, but certainly the typical psychiatrist has been socialized due to the nature of their career to focus on biology, chemistry, and medications as if there could be no other way. Yes, there are studies on the academic research side of medicine that recruit people to test new technology. However, most of what I am seeing in the healthcare system is based on a business motive, not a science motive, because much of the healthcare system is narrowly focused on the financial bottom line. Whereas uninhibited science, with its curiosity, uses a wide aperture to explore all possible avenues, even if it ventures outside of common social belief and into the esoteric or is just interesting instead of profitable. I grew up watching PBS NOVA and Nature throughout the 1970s, 80s, and 90s and admire the potential of science to improve the human condition.

The overall picture that emerges is citizens are finding alternative treatments and searching for their own cures because the US healthcare system functions within a capitalistic framework, making profit the number one priority. The pharmaceutical industry, which primarily concentrates on chemistry and drug solutions, provides the majority of research funding. This limits the funding of real science because now the public is under the impression that effective treatments or a cure must be a medication. Additional scientific roadblocks include overly strict evidence requirements for human trials, preventing science from taking seriously what some patients are reporting; consequently, medical science is discouraged from pursuing leads and intuitive hunches, which might lead to new discoveries.

What healthcare leaders need to understand:
1. Science is not about mathematics, physics, and chemistry. Science is curiosity, objectivity, and knowledge. It doesn't take a college degree to participate in science. A curious cat can do it!

2. The pharmaceutical industry has not made any progress in the last 60 years or more to produce a safe medication that can cure or effectively treat hallucinations and schizophrenia without serious side effects. They have, however, produced billions of dollars in profit! Maybe it’s time to turn our attention to the little guy who just might deliver a revolution.

AI (artificial intelligence) is no match for human potential!
You have no doubt heard of people who were born with a gift or received a gift by way of an accident. For example, I watched a 60 Minutes story about people with photographic memories. One person they interviewed was a Black man that was hit in the head with a baseball, and now he can tell you what the historical weather was like on any particular day in the past. If science were funded to study this, they may discover a way to enable the ability of anyone to access a whole variety of gifts ranging from an engineering epiphany generator to spontaneous healings, and who knows, maybe even immortality itself. What a way to increase GDP (gross domestic product)! Will science discover dark energy possesses memory and it's where we go after we die? Or maybe we can achieve intergalactic travel through the medium of dark energy by way of an out-of-the-body experience? My voice once said, “I’m a pretzel,” meaning it has unlimited ability. I could ask my voices for answers to these questions, and I will probably receive an answer or a metaphorical clue, as they seem to have insight that is beyond me; however, that is not the experiment I am currently conducting. This has been a scary adventure thus far, with emotional moments no less intense than some scenes from Raiders of the Lost Ark.

What I have experienced in the last four years leads me to think AI (artificial intelligence) is no match for human potential. But it frightens me to conduct my own experiments alone, which I am doing now, unassisted and cared for by no one. We would not expect a test pilot to test-fly a supersonic airplane by himself. It takes a team to make highly calculated small steps into the unknown to collect data, get back safely, and discuss the results.

I wondered once what the voices were. I heard “Plasma over network.” At 3am a voice explains to me that voices are equivalent to the level of a programming language called assembly and that I am a magnet that controls the course of a tributary. I am guessing a tributary is a hallucination or my everyday reality. The voice also said "glass-bottom boat." I thought to myself they [voices or spirits] were in a glass-bottom boat looking down on me. The voice said, "No, I was in the glass-bottom boat!" I also wondered why the voices so often say inflammatory statements that cause me so much fear. The voice replied to keep me safe, and I am labor-intensive for them. As I finished dinner, I was told I have a mechanical error in my head and the word “donut.”

I’ve been collecting data about the workings of hallucinations and the subconscious or universal mind. I think possible categories for this data may include clues, concepts, principles, properties, and lists of metaphorical language terms. For example, a counting system that accounts for every thought and emotion (memory), a system that is receptive to rhythms and habits, has balance or pivot points, expectation and how it’s created, delayed echos, and a one-way mirror that pulls you into psychosis, like a rip tide pulls a swimmer out to sea. My voice just said “river.” Plus, clues like a popping sound/feeling as though a part of me is being pulled out of my body and manipulated by spiritual beings, incomplete sentences or visions that tempt you to fill in the missing parts, as well as a long list of metaphors that could shed light on these mysterious communications from the unknown! As I wrote the word "unknown" just now, my voice whispered "heaven."


It just takes a strong leader to stand up before a crowd and declare before the decade is out we are going to make a pioneering effort to solve this problem!

[New State] will support the creation of a simple, lightweight website that connects everyone on earth who is working on a non-medication treatment or cure for hallucinations, so everyone can see what everyone is doing. Medication treatments will be included only if they demonstrate little to no side effects. People's profiles will come from all walks of life: scientific researchers, psychologists, psychiatrists, the voice hearers themselves, physicists, historians, experts in the study of real magic... anyone who can make a contribution! A good template to use for this website is a cross between the biography site nndb.com and craigslist.com.

[New State] will support the creation of a team to scour the world in search of all cases of people experiencing the incubus/succubus phenomenon and compare notes. This disorder is an underreported and understudied condition because it is socially taboo or uncomfortable to raise awareness about. The victims' stories should be documented, especially for anyone who has recovered, and patterns should be looked for across cultures. I hope one day I will hear on the news, "Scientists were stunned!"

[New State] will support the ambitious objective to map or create a schematic diagram of the subconscious mind to figure out how it works and learn a way to communicate with it so we can do better than the habitual use of medication. I propose a worldwide participation in this effort; no degree required. Somebody knows something! Breakthrough understandings could come from the US, China, or Timbuktu; it really doesn’t matter. As I think about this, the voice says, "Iron Horse!" So I will call this Operation Iron Horse.

richard@newstatejournal.com













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